I am feeling a bit fed up today. I have been in a funk that ebbs and flows but I still manage to get up and do the things I need to do each day. Some days are better than others but even with a recent get-a-way to a beach (so I could have a different view during quarantine) did not completely pull me out of my funky mood. I feel like something is missing and this morning I decided to go into the office instead of sitting at home. I miss my routine, I miss socializing and going to the gym….I want my normal back.
I have tried to maintain a regular wake and sleep schedule even on the days I have been working from home. I have got up each day and made my bed, got out of my pajamas, brushed my teeth and went through a pretty normal process just like I would if I were going to get in my car and commute to work. However, even with this attempt to keep some degree of normalcy I have felt…off. I thrive on planning and routines and this whole quarantine thing has left me feeling a bit lost. I find myself doing things to overcome the loneliness and boredom that starts to set in when you have had too much time alone. Don’t text the ex, stop posting so much on social media, focus on your school and work projects, read a book, watch a documentary, only eat when you are hungry, do some online guided yoga and meditations classes, stop ordering off Amazon, drink more water….damn girl shave your legs even if you don’t have a man in your life! (yes these are conversations I have actually had with myself)
So, needless to say, at this point I am just over it. I am single and want to mingle. I am in need of hiking, fishing, kayaking, meeting my girls at the winery all dressed up and having lunch. I want to go on a date and have a really good conversation with a handsome dude who can make me laugh. There are only so many books a girl to read and let me tell you, I looooove to read! There are only so many movies, documentaries and crime shows a girl can watch before she becomes a full on CSI or so much Grey’s Anatomy before she tries to do a tracheotomy with a kitchen knife and a straw. (I wouldn’t recommend coughing around me at this point). I live alone, work alone, most of my human contact is Zoom meetings with school and work and phone calls or social media. I have finally started to venture out and see a couple of family members and friends and it feels so therapeutic.
I am a introvert for the most part but I do love social interaction and months of no plans with friends or family has been more of a struggle than I expected. I hope everyone is being wise and safe when they do venture out and I understand the need to be cautious but I just need a little human interaction. Please check on your single friends during this time.
With love, health, happiness and many future hugs!